Sunday, June 26, 2011

Composers...

Having almost two blocked ears, I have been given a heightened awareness of what it must be like to be deaf. I plan to get my ears unblocked tomorrow - but I know there are many people who can't. Being someone who wears glasses, my ability to hear was very important to me - and with that being dulled, I have again a greater appreciation for people like my neighbour who is both deaf and blind. One of things I missed the most is the ability to hear music and my inability to hear myself and others singing. The one person I thought of then was Beethoven and how he overcame this challenge to be one of the greatest composers ever......

Here are some insights into some of our greatest composers....

1) BEETHOVEN
Beethoven, as a teenager lost his mother and supported his brothers. However, at twenty-eight he realised he was beginning to lose his hearing. He quickly started pulling himself away from others because of this. At forty-nine this bold figure with shabby coat, torn sleeves, and heavy thicket of hair could communicate only by writing. Once when he felt death near, he wrote a message to his brothers, saying: “Almost alone in the world, I dare not venture into society more than absolute necessity requires.” Then he added, “O God! Thou lookest down upon my mysery; thou knowest that it is accompanied with love of my fellow creatures, and a disposition to do good.” (G. T. Ferris, The Great German Composers, pp. 131–32.) And from that mind that could not hear men talk came the roar of joyful music. He wrote it on scraps of paper, on walls, blinds, and tables. Great symphonies and choruses have carried his powerful tidings to the world. He was fifty-five when that momentous No. 9, known as the Choral, was completed in 1826. At fifty-six he was dead.

2) HANDEL
Elder Spencer J. Condie writes in an article in 2010 called 'Handel and the Gift of Messiah' of a composer who had become dissillusioned with his life and after returning from a long walk, picked up a amnauscript filled with scripture referenece from Isaiah foretelling the birth of Jesus Christ and describing His ministry, Crucifixion, and Resurrection. He was so inspired by those words that he could not write fast enough.... and completed the work, which will remain one of his most defining compositions, in just three works. Upon finishing it - he humbly stated that "God had visited me" (Stephan Zweig, The Tide of Fortune: Twelve Historical Miniatures (1940), 121). Following the first London performance of Messiah, a patron congratulated Handel on the excellent "entertainment" to which he replied - "My lord, I should be sorry if I only entertained them - I wish to make them better" (in Donald Burrows, Hande:Messiah (1991), 28) 

3) MOZART
In music one year, after making ammendment after ammendment to my compositions, my teacher told us about Mozart's ability to write music ready to be played without error... Not much help to me at the time, but something that I have never forgotten... And then just last week some 25 years+ later - as in just last week I actually learnt what this was. Mozart had an eidetic or photographic memory. In his own words, Wolfgang Mozart described how he used the creative process: “Those ideas that please me I retain in memory. … All this fires my soul and, provided I am not disturbed, my subject enlarges itself, becomes methodized and defined, and the whole, though it be long, stands almost complete and finished in my mind, so that I can survey it, like a fine picture or a beautiful statue, at a glance” (in Brewster Ghiselin, The Creative Process, Berkeley, California: University of California Press, 1952, p. 44). Truly amazing, as is his music.

4) SCHUMANN
Having been exposed to his music but not playing much of it - I was once told that Schumann wrote music for his wife to play, she herself being an accomplished pianist. I also remember that the fingering in the music is what we call extended which requires your hand to be spread out and in some places complex. My teacher told me that was done because Schumann's wife had large hands.... I'm not sure if this was true or not, but is something I will never forget, 1) that a man loved enough to write for his wife and 2) that a man would accomodate his wife's challenges and write music to suit. Recently, I have discovered that after Schumann passed, his wife remained the main editor of her husband's work and was responsible for the music of Schumann living on long after his death - and that is love.

I can't wait to hear again..... and promise to listen better and never take my hearing for granted again!

Yours in friendship,

Mxox

Sunday, June 19, 2011

A week of firsts....

Sarah Vaughn sings a song that has the words "what a difference a day makes - twenty four little hours...." and I couldn't agree more. This past week is only a tiny space of time in a life full of many years.... and yet there was room for firsts.....

1) Taupiri Maunga
To celebrate Matariki a group of my colleagues, students, Kuia and Kaumatua climbed Taupiri maunga (mountain)at 5.30am, led by Kingi Tuheitia. At the top, we shared karakia (prayers), waiata (songs) and whakapapa (geneology) of Taupiri and Pirongia, the surrounding area and the beautiful Waikato awa (river). We listened to stories about the tupuna (ancestry) of the Tainui tribe and Kingitanga. It was the first time I had been there and the view was spectacular. The wairua (spirit) was peaceful and it was beautiful.

2) Thames Graduation
Where I work, the phrase second chance learners is used to describe our students. Its description tries to encapsulate the failure of the education system in our student's lives and how coming to Te Wananga o Aotearoa bridges that gap and more, by providing a holistic and healing way of learning. This is never more evident than at a graduation ceremony. There are people there that cross the stage for the first time in generations to complete a certificate and gain a tohu (award).

3) Swimmer's Ear
I learnt to swim as a child. Although not as good as my younger sister and brother - it was still something that I did better than anything on land ;-) After 20 years, I have returned to the pool to try and shed some of these well loved kilos I carry ;-) After my first session back, and for the first time in my WHOLE LIFE - I get a blocked ear.. I shrug it off. Then the week later, the same thing happens and it takes four days to come right, then the next it takes six days to unblock. I then decide - enough is enough and I get some earplugs. I put those in - and after that session I have had a blocked ear every since. I go to the pharmacist/chemist and explain my symptoms and he tells me I have "swimmer's ear" and gives me some drops which are called Swimmer's Ears. First time ever!

4) Writing Retreat
I am blessed enough to be invited (well I invited myself) to a writing retreat at the Waikato Tainui Research and Development College, Hopuhopu through work. If you get time, google it and see what a wonderful legacy has been started in this place.... It is the first time I have been here and it is a fantastic facility. Each person has their own room with a desk and a bed and NO tv - that's how serious the people were about the impetus of this facility to enhance one's learning in pursuit of excellence. I'm loving it. I just need to get a Phd proposal out of the next two days ;-) after writing my blog ;-)

5) To be served
My new Personal Assistant started work for me this week. Before leaving work one night, she comes in and asks if its okay if she moved my office around and I say "that's fine". My office and especially my desk looked like a bomb has gone off and I was too overwhelmed with everything to do something about it and as a colleague said after seeing my car - it truly was a reflection of my mind............Anyway, when I get back to my office the next afternoon after a day in meetings - my office has not only been re-arranged, but every little knick-knack (and you have to know I have many ;-)) is back up on the walls, on shelves. My desk is tidied. My filing is ordered. The flow of work is clear. And everything is right with the world. I don't know if this is going to continue. I'm too scared to get used to how this feels - but for the first time I feel like someone really wants to serve me - and I will never ever forget her - EVER! Thank you Arozxox

Look out for the firsts - they may never be repeated but will definitely not be forgotten....

Yours in friendship,

Mxo